My partner filled my head with lies and false promises, even going as far as to say my stillbirth was all my fault because it was my body that our child was growing inside.
I got told I only breastfed so I could keep my son from him so I was forced to stop. Forced to stop giving my child the nutrients he deserved because his dad was insecure
The only thing I could think of doing was convincing him I didn’t want my family, only him. That none of this needed to happen because we were so happy. Finally I managed to convince him.
He would continue making me feel terrible about saying no, or he would completely ignore me and be passive aggressive. I could never please him and it destroyed me mentally. I felt worthless.
I messaged him and said I was filing for divorce and that he needed to get his things out of the house. He said I would regret texting him.
He would call me a bad mom because he knew that's what would get to me. He would call me lazy when I was the one working and taking care of our kids and cleaning up his filth.
As I went through this I’d tell myself “This is what love is” “I have to make this work” and “I don’t want to start over with someone
He slowly isolated me from friends and family, or who knows, maybe I isolated myself out of shame
It took me months to realize that I was a victim of sexual assault. Over a year later, and many a blame on myself and diagnoses, I’ve come to realize that although I was in that position, it does not define who I am
when the violence became a regular occurrence I would always lie! Mostly out of shame & embarrassment! No one ever thinks they will be 'THAT' woman!
He started being so snappy about everything, his wage would disappear and I received a letter about rent payments not being paid…
Everything moved too quickly, I moved in with him and my whole life revolved around his happiness. He began with jealous comments…
started off as more emotional abuse, being called named, accused of cheating, checking my phone, lying to me, hiding money…
Unless you've been there, you truly do not understand the amount of worthlessness another human can make you feel. You can't know the confusion when you have been manipulated for years
I never should've been made to feel bad for coming to an adult but I was, and for that reason I will ALWAYS believe a child.
As soon as I moved in with him it started off with little things like throwing papers at me, spilling drinks all over me and calling me a whore, telling me that that kid isn't his
So to those that are struggling to find your way to the light. Do not fear, do not lose hope because all it takes is a spark of faith, to illuminate the world never before seen, that has been overshadowed by the dark that has fallen upon you
The man that entered my life as a charismatic, charming, perfect person turned out to be the most evil person I had ever laid my eyes on.
I felt the lowest I've ever felt in my life. Sometimes I regret not going to the police.
The compliments turned into emotional abuse. And he no longer wanted my time & attention, he demanded it.